Not so Happy Onam

Yesterday I had a Onam Dinner with my Uncle's Family.

Onam is basically a celebration from Kerala. I had a good meal, and it was all vegetarian.. hehe

Today I woke up and my eyes are a bit weird. Its kinda heavy and painful and weird. I booked an appointment with Boots opticians for 1st september and I have a GP appointment and dietician on 4th September. 

From Hospital

Hello Everyone.

I am writing this post from the hospital bed.

So basically I finished my first year exams one week back on 24/05/2012. I think I did well in the exams. I was very well prepared and I am confident that I will pass with a 1st class.

Yesterday (1/06/2012), I went out with the parents for garden shopping. We bought a lot of plants. I was so happy. I got home and had lunch. Also it was a nice and sunny day.

I went to the toilet at 7.30 pm and my mum told me she is going to her Brother's House, which is about 3 mins away. At about 7.45 pm, I got an anxiety attack, I started thinking "how to make pot noodles from scratch" and i was feeling so weird. I got out of the toilet and went to my room. My head was feeling so weird. I thought I am going to have another migraine attack. I took the tablet out of my bag, i couldn't even open my eyes. I couldn't read the expiry date, so I decided to call my mother, but so hard to use the phone. But I managed to use it and call her. I told her to come home ASAP.

Then I got a text message from my brother. I forgot my phone password, but in a few seconds i remembered, then i couldn't understand the text, but then i read it and replied.

after a few seconds at about 8.05 pm, I sat down in my chair and I felt one of my body seizing up and going tight. I was losing my conscious and I thought I was having a stroke, I wanted to use the phone to call 999, but i couldn't. then i tried to make noises to wake up my dad sleeping next door. i remember making some noises, but with 3-4 seconds i lost complete consciousness.

I regained consciousness at about 9 pm, I was on the floor in foetal position. I couldn't walk or speak or understand anyone around me. I just wanted to lie down. I was taken to the Emergency Room, they took everything seriously, did a lot of blood tests and it took me a few hours to regain complete conscious.

They decided to admit me at the hospital for observation.

So here I am, still in hospital bed, being checked over and over by a lot of doctors, neurologists etc..

I am going to have an MRI soon to check my brain. they suspect it could be epilepsy.

Leg Update

Hi.. I am gonna give you an update on my leg..:-P

Well its the same, or worse.

I feel when coming down the stairs at the train station, nearly fell in my lecture hall, and on the road and in the bus... So no improvements...

I find it even hard to go down the stairs now. I don't know how long it will last for. I am scared that I will be like this for ever. Nobody can understand what I am feeling.. Just me.. 

I haven't even told my friends that my legs are weird. I just hide from them and pretend everything is okay.

Its so hard to get into bathtub and going up and down the stairs. I have to sit down to put on my trousers. It is soooo hard.

My Introduction to Engineering Lecture is on the 4th floor and the lift is not working. I have to walk up the stairs with my near paralysed legs and I am always late and cannot tell the reason..

GP appointment for Leg wierdness..

Today (13/03/2012), I had a GP appointment for my right leg.

I went to the GP and he checked my legs and he said maybe it is just calcium deficiency or something.

He told me to do some leg exercises and said it will hopefully go away.

So no medications of anything, but just exercise and plenty of water.

First Signs

Today (12/03/2012) I woke up to go to university and I found out that my right leg is feeling so weak.

I couldn't lift it up properly to put my jeans on, to put socks on or to put my boots on. But I managed to do them. Walking down and up the stairs was very hard. My legs were like paralysed.

I was walking to to the bus stop at 7.00 am and I just couldn't walk as normal. It was soo weird. I was sort of limping. I was feeling so scared. How could this happen. Without any reason.

I managed to get into the bus, then get to the train station.I was walking to university and it was so hard, but I made it. But walking up even the five steps of GO Jones building was hard. Going down the stairs wasn’t so bad. So I called mum to make an appointment with GP, and got the appointment for next day, 13/03/2012.

Angry...family!!!

Today in the morning, my dad got angry fro no reason....he is always like that...just start a fight without any reason.... We were making breakfast together, because my mum went to the 9 am mass.... But after he had a shower,,, he went downstairs and his face looked really angry and just snapped!!!.. Then he said that he is being treated as a SLAVE at home!!!!... What?!!.. He is our father!!!.. Not a slave... Then he said he prefer to cook what he want to eat and just forget abt us!!!... I mean come on!!!..

Then he started just blabbering on abt things that made no sense to the situation!!.. I was so upset and just felt like going somewhere... I hope when I get to uni... I wouldn't have to deal with these things... As I will leave home early in the morning and come home late!!.. But if I was in Bradford university,,, I wouldn't have to worry about it at all...:).. But I have to now that I am going to university of London!!..

Btw... There's been a thing that I have noticed of my dad... That is before he goes to India for holiday... Just b4 two or three days he get into a fight with my mum or us!!! And he is going on holiday on Tuesday... In TWO days!!!.. The reason mi8 be that, then we will not be calling him to check up on what he is being up2!!!! Get it??!!

Oh well... I love my family...but I don't think that they do anything to make me happy!!!... I always feel like I am being left out!!!..:'(..

Anyways..that's my problems being told.... Please feel free to tell abt ur problems...!!!!..Wen u realise there are other ppl with also problems,,, half of our problems fade away... And I don't mean that having problems is something to be made fun abt....oh.... U know what I mean...doncha?????

For nw...

Peace...(something I am lacking at the moment)...xxx

A Level Results....18 August 2011

Guess what????!!!!...

I Passed!!!!!..

yes....i am finally going to UNI!!!!!

the status message!!!

i am soooooo relieved.....i didnt failed any of the years and is going to my dream university to do my dream course.....:))))....

the exam results were what i wanted and i am over the moon!!!!