The beginning of it all

Today I woke up and I found out that my left side of my whole body is numb and weak.

I was so happy yesterday, but today its the opposite.

I cannot feel any pain when i pinch myself and if i put something cold on my skin, it feels like its burning me and if it is hot, it is freezing cold.

I am going to go to the GP, if this continues.

My 20th B'day

My 20th Birthday and I am not a teenager anymore. Didn’t feel any mature, but I was excited to go to university and not make a fuss, like I did last year. My friends only knew it was my birthday a day after. I had four hours of lectures from 9-1. I got a text from Sanna saying that she is in the Ground and I should hurry up. I went there are and Ilkay, Sonal and Grace were there. There was a huge bag full of gifts and Sonal was trying to hide a birthday card, because she was writing something in it. I read the card and it was beautiful. They loved me; at least someone did. Sonal and Grace had to go to their lectures, but Ilkay, Sanna and I were free. It took us about half an hour to decide where to, know me will help you understand.

We ended up in Nandos. I had the ¼ chicken combo meal with fries and garlic bread. It was so yummy. We sat there for a long time and talked a lot about how we miss the SEFP and when all of us were in the same lectures. At about 4 we decided to leave and go home. I was so excited to open the presents on my way home. It was so cold. In the bus, I was sitting near a radiator and it was so hot. I was very sick on my way home, but I made it.

I got home and I opened it. A beautiful silver bracelet, a gorgeous bath set and a lovely gift set. I loved it. I texted everyone about how grateful I am to have friends like them. I was happy again after a long time. I forgot I couldn’t see with one eye, I had seizure a few months back, and I am depressed. I slept peacefully that night.

Uni days

University Lectures started on 24th Sept, and I am finding it so hard in the lectures. Because I cannot see properly with my eyes and I am constantly worried about my seizure and everything. I am not happy , I am constantly Stressed.

I just cannot see anything, I always have to sit in the front, I do not have a lot of friends, it is sooo annoying.

My lecturer doing a dissection

Back to University

Today was a horrible day, I finally left my house by myself after 4 long months since my seizure. And it was made even horrible by the fact that I am half blind.

I couldn't see properly. Couldn't talk to people properly. Cannot look around properly. It was a disgusting day. I couldn't read the board, nothing, everything was grey.

OH, God, Please show some mercy on me. I am suffering a lot and I do not know how to carry on.

I don't know what to say

Sorry I haven't been posting for a while now. ever since the EEG, my eye has gotten worse, I went to casualty three times after that and I have to say that I lost complete vision from my left eye.

I lost about 90% by 11th September, but the doctors said there is nothing wrong with my eyes.. how stupid are they??.. I can't see a bloody thing..

So yesterday, I went back again and I persuaded the woman there to check my eyes again and again, so she decided to check the back of my eye, which they haven't done yet, the last three times I was at the casualty.

She asked me did I recently have and MRI, lumbar punch or CT?. I said I had an MRI and EEG to check for epilepsy.

Then she told me I have Optic Neuritis and I should have an MRI again to check for MS.

I am devastated. I don't know what to do, I cannot see with one eye, other eye is shortsighted, I start University again in just three days. AAARRRGGGHHH

Lord, Help me.

EEG - Royal Hospital London

Today is my first ever EEG test.. wooooh

It is to test whether I have epilepsy or not. It is at Royal Hospital, White chapel, and right next to my university, Queen Mary University of London.

It took me and my Mum a while to get to the EEG department, coz it is a HUGE hospital (I had to go to Neurophysiology btw)

It was quite a wait for the technicians to call me to do the EEG. 

The EEG was okay, but my eyes went weird after the photo sensitive test, but it became normal after a while.

Appointments for eye

I went to GP and he told me to go straight to the eye casualty, coz he doesn't have the equipment to check my eyes. So I went to the eye casualty at PAH.

The doctor there checked my eyes and said there is some cell damage, so he gave me an eye drop and told me to put them on. I told him I have an EEG tomorrow, but he said it will be fine.

So fingers crossed.

Boots Opticians..

LT eye vision is perfect, RT eye needs -0.5 lenses. Optician found slight cell damage but told me to go to GP, just in case.

I went to church today and say Jincy aunt, Liya and Sara, I was at their house till about 8 pm. Then went home.